Why?

Multi-Level companies ask the important question that isn't always looked at from a job perspective or from a daily perspective.  I had someone ask me in passing what is the end point.  What is the goal and why are you doing what you are doing?  Not asking why I was a nurse but why I traveled and was spending time away from the family.  

I didn't feel like chatting.  I said so I can retire in 5 years.  So I can work less and spend time with the family.  I either compress the work down by working more hours, get a raise, or I live in a way that I don't desire.  This is why I do locums in big hospitals.  I get a large number of hours and call.  I have worked with these companies before and they know how I work.  I get paid pretty well.  This way I earn more than is spent... most of the time.  

Surrogacy and family building have been a focus of ours.  This has increased the debt load and thus I'm working away from home for a period of time to cover those bills so that credit card interest doesn't really cost what apps like Credit Karma would say it'll take to pay off debt.  

I'm also working on Taxes as I spent the money that came in and little things added up.  I don't recommend getting in as deep as I did.  It's a difficult hole to claw out of.  Every interaction and purchase needs to have a why.  To what end is this thing going to be of benefit.  What will this do in the coming days, weeks, months, or years.  So, I'm asking myself, as things come up, "why"?  

It turns out a year ago I would have sat down and bought a new laptop "for school" when my excel version didn't have what I needed and the computer was somewhat slow.  Today, I bought office but not the recurring monthly billing and not a new computer to go with it.  I dind't save 2000$ but at least I didn't spend it.  

My goal is to be working 1-2 days a week by the time Elizabeth is 5 years old and living about the standard of living we are currently living.  It's a challenge... especially when that is 3.5 years away. That means developing our spending in the right ways.  That means developing our business in the right ways.  That means finding my why for each thing I do.  

People wonder about the going back to school piece.  I happen to question myself a lot at the moment as I'm doing my most disliked statistics and algebraic equations course.  I love business and simple math.  I don't like big math.  I think I should be able to use a spreadsheet and be able to do basic math skills that most calculators can do.  Beyond those things.... there are applications and computers to help compute what might be needed.  I know someday I'll tell Elizabeth she just has to do it to advance to the information she needs to learn... so I'll tell myself the same.  But, school is costly right?  In this case I have the GI Bill and it wasn't transferrable.  It was to the time of use it or lose it.  This will allow a free education and allow extra minimal income toward bills.  It's a time loss though.  Sometimes, I wonder how I can fit it in.  I study and keep thinking I'll learn something that I can use in the future.  

Why is definitely a hard question when I have to answer why I'm away from my family. Why I'm working 60+ hour weeks.  Why is because we enjoyed life for years and now it's time to be ready for Elizabeth to have her time.  I want to be there for her school events, her trips, and her development.  We want another child in our family so that is part of why I'll continue this pace until all is done and paid for.  Then it's time to settle into life and have things set on auto for a while.  Work with a little family balance.  Tip the scales to the side of enjoyment. Bikes, hikes, and family time.  

So, Why are you thinking locum work?  Why are you afraid to travel?  Why are you doing what you are?  It's definitely worth finding your Why and what is the end point of it?