Depressed?

I had someway say that I sounded down.  I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to give a negative impression.  I’m excited 99% of the time.  I stress out now that I’m truly focusing on radical family development.  This involves the adoption or surrogate portion of our lives that will be the coming together of our family.  I am focusing on the bills and trying to get us away from paying interest to companies.  I don’t like the amount in interest I pay.  The focus is the revolving debt but I’m working on making my fixed debts lower as well.  

I enjoy the rentals and I hope to have many able-bodied years to continue the rentals as they are a source of income and throw off 20+% per annum.  There are times I get stressed and it’s usually a mix of buying and working on the houses.  Not with tenant issues.  I could care less if someone moves out and it sits for 3 months until the next moves in ... because I want to be particular in screening and ensuring good tenants will take care of things and pay rent.  I have the luxury of doing this now but in 5 years I may hire a property management group so family doesn’t need to manage but.. that’s a we’ll see thing. 

i start my mba program on Monday.  I have the post 9/11 GI bill for 3 years and am psyched!  It’s free education and housing allowance while I work full time.  I’d have to say that is amazing!  I’m going to see about the reserves and if I can do that in several months but I’m not sure about my history and the ability... but it’s in the back of my brain.  It may be a way we can work less and still get some long term benefits.  there is sooo much I don’t know or understand on the reserves.

i go back to Massachusetts today and I love the people but it’s so hard to leave Elizabeth and Francisco at home.  It’s better for them and stability or I’d just have them go up.  It’ll be something like 5 weeks.  I am pretty sure I’ll miss the first word unless the occasional hi sound counts like a word but it’s not completely intentional.  Elizabeth is so animated and talks to us despite no comprehensible speech yet. I love FaceTime, pictures and video.... I don’t feel I’m missing things and when I’m home... I’m with them as much as humanly possible.  I’m there for the melt-downs, when she just wakes up and is soooo cute and happy.  I’m here to take care of bills, office things, management of the home and supporting every person in the family in ways they need.   

So ... I’m happy, I’ve made my choices that will support my intermediate goals and mission so that we are happier and together more.   

Now I must get the last minute packing done.  We are off to the airport in no less than 2 hours.